I’ve been busy. I’m right in the middle of sabotaging my relationship. My brain just isn’t in the habit of a relationship and sometimes the learning seems too hard. I feel like I should just give up and go back to the way I comfortably know how to run.
That’s exactly right. It’s hard to make a change, but it seems like how I’m living/behaving now isn’t quite right either. The logical answer seems to be to let someone else in. Eh. It sounds like you have someone.