My recent outbursts have been due to the fact that I haven’t had television for the past week and a half. (A reaction that I’m not proud of.) Also, a conversation that left me feeling inadequate, poor, and tasteless, reminding me why I tend to/try to make friends who grew up in trailer houses. Today I’ve had an overwhelming feeling of loneliness, homesickness, and saddness. Whenever I don’t have tv, I start getting the feeling that I don’t have any friends.
Today’s mood is also in direct correlation with the weather; when it is sunny before a storm, I’m usually in bed crying for hours, like I was today–out of the shower, socks pulled up, tight skin, wet, tangled hair providing moisture to my bedding/bug and bacteria breeding ground.