After about a month and a half of not wanting to go to graduate school, I am starting to feel like I could face it again. This feeling has came on slowly and I hope it lasts. I’ve had a few fleeting moments similar to this feeling before, but they haven’t lasted. I’m hoping this one can last and build. I mailed my lease agreement today. I truly, truly like my job, and I want to teach English at a college somewhere. I need to keep that in mind. I also find myself thinking, “Hey, maybe I’ll make a friend. Maybe the faculty will be nice and free of hostility. Maybe it will be a pleasant time, where I learn, grow and never feel too burdened or stressed.” These fantasies help keep me going.
It is also hard to leave because I kind of like my life right now in SLC. I know some people. I know where things are. I am comfortable. I know how much my car insurance is going to cost. I know that I can afford my bills. Now I have to give that all up…yet again.
I also want to note that if I die in the next few weeks, please disregard the stack of books they will find by my bedside. They are not what I typically read. I mean, typically, I don’t read.


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