as exciting as sleep

So, I’m teaching this early morning yoga class. I have to be there at 6:15am, which means I set the alarm for 5:45am, hit the snooze, roll out of bed at 6:01am, stumble around getting dressed, run downstairs to start my car, stumble around some more in my apartment, then drive to the gym, where I feel dizzy and nauseous and not quite awake while welcoming students into my class. I’ve tried to keep the classes peppy and energetic, since deep inside I am feeling the opposite. But, a strange thing happens: I actually start to liven up. By the time I leave, I’m ready to start my day. I buzz around my apartment getting a few things done, thinking I’m going to read and work on school stuff, and then I just crash and nap. But, not today. So far I am still awake, but I have to wonder if it will last. Will I just end up crashing in the next half hour? Because if that’s the case, then I should sleep as soon as I get home.
Furthermore, I am trying to get to bed early, but my body is rejecting this. So, I dim the lights, do a little reading, and then it’s lights out by 10pm. Then, of course, I am wide awake. This is usually my homework time. Normally I would procrastinate and then read and type frantically into the night. My brain lights up. This is probably my favorite time of the day, but now I’ll have to shift my homework habits to morning, when I am way too drowsy for any thinking, let alone good, frantic typing. 
I guess I’m wondering if my body will make the adjustment, or if I’ll just end up getting up early to teach, only to come home, sleep through the morning, and stay up late with homework anyway. I just don’t like my day to be so fragmented. I guess I’ll find out how I do in the next week or so. I have to admit that teaching the early morning yoga class has been better than I thought it would be. It also feels healthy to get up early, work hard through the day and then fall asleep early too. It’s great in theory, but I’m not sure if that’s how my internal clock works. I’m also not sure if I have the power to change that internal clock.
Did I mention I need a full 9 hours to function properly?

2 thoughts on “as exciting as sleep

  1. sherewin Post author

    Yep, but the problem is that I still can’t fall asleep before 11:30pm. So, I’ve been sleep deprived these past few weeks. Hopefully that will change. And, I am totally in to yoga. I guess a lot has changed. (It was almost a decade ago!) Enjoy your t-shirt weather. It was -12 here this morning.


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